fist of justice

thats what i wish i had. if i could have a fist that could fix every injustice, id be so happy. this world isnt fair. and im fine with that most of the time. but sometimes im not. im NOT fine with how love can be stolen and shattered. im NOT ok with people using other people to achieve a certain end. im NOT ok with my best friend on this planet being depressed when he's the best friend i could ask for. im NOT ok with the fact that my training doesnt pay off. im NOT ok with the drugs and alchohol related crimes that go on in my school. im NOT ok with how my mom ruins my day every time i have a good day before i see her. and im NOT ok with how my mom shattered my hopes and dreams. the list could go on forever. not only could it, it does. sometimes, u learn something about someone and you want to pummel them. jeff, you're probly not reading this but if you are, then know that you are one of those people to me. you tried to rape someone who i used to care about with all my heart. some of my friends say that you're just oblivious and dont know whats right and wrong. i think thats BULLSHIT. you can tell right and wrong. of that i am sure. what separates us from animals? is it emotion? no, animals feel too. is it our bodies? no, if anything, animals have better bodies than we do. so what is it? morality. a conscience. the ability to tell right from wrong and to act on it accordingly. without that, we are nought but dumb animals that walk on two legs. in my eyes, you are exactly that. i usually dont post things here about people i like in case they read it and they get freaked out. this time, i dont really care. theres a girl. a girl i used to like a lot. i still like her, but shes with someone. now that someone tried very hard to get her and was eventually successful, but i still cant shake that feeling that she made a mistake and she shouldve chosen me. but i was too pussy to tell her how i felt so i didnt even give her the choice. i found out that someone tried to rape her. the way she said it implied that the person who tried to rape her was the person she chose over me. i felt a moment of vicious, savage joy, knowing that i was right. then, i felt shock. im not as close to this girl as i would like to be. but im glad she opened up to me, even if it was just a little. then, i felt a rage. how DARE he do this to her. i didnt contest it when he tried so hard to get her because i thought in my heart that he could and would take care of her. instead, he violated her. she became depressed and tried to kill herself. the rage i felt at that. my fist, filled with justice or hatred, i really couldnt care less which one, wanted to lash out at him. but i wont. because like always, i have to be the bigger person. this shit is getting annoying. to the girl, if you're reading this and you found out that i like you and you're freaked out, im sorry. thats all i can really say. and to jeff, i was on the verge of forgiving you. but after i learned about what you did, it aint happening. dont try anything funny on me. i may be a small guy, but i can do some damage. ive given you a second chance by letting us not be enemies. if you try anything on me, there wont be a third.