lets see here. my day. i woke up at 4 40 to practice piano. ill be doing that for the next month. o goodie -__- my mom got angry at me for absolutely no reason this morning and pretty much ruined my morning. school was boring as usual. i got another haircut. i really like long hair. like asian pop star long hair. but they all have straight hair. and i...dont. so o well. ill have to find a good short hairstyle for me. i wish i was tanner tho. im waayyy too pale. anyways, after school i had rehearsal for the wiz, which was amazing as usual. i dont have any of the main parts, but its still fun. and ill probly have them next yr. and once again, my physical disabilities frustrate me greatly. my legs are messed up, but i really hate my speech impediment. theres a nerve thats been pinched off in my brain.the doctors pretty said that its my parents fault for raising me in such a negative environment. and now, i cant ever live a completely normal life. simple things like participating in class, making a friend, or even talking to a cute grl can be challenging tasks that often end with me being humiliated. if i dont become a musician, i will become a psychologist and find the cure. or maybe i would have to be a neurosurgeon to do that. idk. i really wanna get in shape. im a bit flabby and i havent dont martial arts in a while. but i guess piano has to come first for now. especially with panel and pit ogoing on at once. not to mention my juilliard audition pieces. im super excited for gospel camp this weekend. last time i went, it was super bomb. hopefully it is this time too. random thought that i just had: I HATE DRUGS. if you do drugs, i think you're dumb. i have friend who do drugs. my best friend did drugs for the first time not too long ago and did again....and again. im really afraid for him. i wanna find whoever sells him the drugs and the people he smokes with and beat them all down. another random fact/thought: i really like the songs high techonology by epik high and flow by epik high. they use the f word a lot. but i dont find it offensive. its just a word. if u censored it, it takes the passion out of the rap. i need to start to write about some more interesting things so if anyone wants to give me a topic, id be glad to write about it. but probly no one reads this anyways haha