someone will pay

Love

Love in an interesting word. Love has no rational reason to exist. It makes us do things that are selfless and stupid, in the eyes of an animal that has to survive and carry on the line. What is love? you can define it. It's different for everyone. People say that teenagers are too quick to say i love you to their significant other. i disagree. i think that yes, this happens, quite often, but teenage love is possible. It's all around me. Jed is in love. So is Michael. So are many people who i just dont have the patience to list right now. And so am I. I dont know if this is a love meant to last. And sometimes, i doubt she even loves me, even though she says she does, but I know how i feel. And people who say that im wrong, are just plain ignorant. They dont know everything between me and her. They have no way of knowing. Besides, love is different for each of us. What me and her have might not be called love to somebody else. But that somebody isnt the one in love is he? its between me and her and really, they have no logical way to disprove that we are in love. I guess we are going through a rough patch though. i feel as if she is ashamed of me. she got mad at me for thinking that, but i have so much "Evidence" that she couldnt really counter. So, i dont know what im going to do. If shes reading this right now, i wanna say this to her. You are my everything. Even if you dont want me to love you so much in fear that i will get hurt. I know you have faults, you dont have to tell me, and i accept you. The entirety of you. With your faults. You give me so much hope in mankind and so much hope in myself. Every night at 11:11 i wish that you would just get over your problems and realize that you are so amazing and that you can do anything you want and you, not anyone else, controls you. Even though i may not show it all the time, i love you. She will probly never read this. and she will probly never believe this. Just like i dont believe that she truly loves me sometimes. But one can hope. To my brothers: kenny, justin, torin, michael, and jed, thank you. I could say so much to you about how you have helped me, but i already have to your face. you know how much you have helped me.